Today started out not-so-okay, and it ended going downhill, making me very unhappy in the end.

Towards the end of some lesson, I happened to hear someone saying that someone disliked me. And it's so open and public that I was hurt. I had hoped to vent my anger at that very moment to whoever said that, but it so happened that I didn't.

Although I have no clue to why this person doesn't like me, the thought of being disliked was on my mind for half of the day. I do wish to find out the reason. The simplest reason I can give is that: I hardly, ever, speak to that person. And I thought he was not that sort of person who would think bad of people?

Sometimes, the saying: "You can never please everyone in this world." hovers in my mind. Why? Cos' I doubt that saying a lot. True, everyone may be different, but sometimes you can change a lot such that people might start disliking you. The worse thing is that, you don't even know it yourself. Sometimes we say people are hypocrites, but I often wonder if I myself am a hypocrite without realising it. That's why I would rather not criticise anyone as hypocritical, cos' to err is human.

I may look as if I am a show-off, weirdo in class, but deep down I have lots of hidden emotions. I wish I could have someone, someone who can help me. Although I know He will always be there for me, but still I need a human guide like myself to share my feelings. Keeping them in my heart is really a torture, sometimes I feel that- if one day I ever fall asleep, forever on my bed, that would be great. I would not be thinking bout' stuff that made me feel that way.

Do share your comments. I really need them, cos I'm in a confused state of mind.

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